What Would You Do If…

You only had six months to live?

This is one of the questions asked in Today Matters: Chapter 4.  To determine the right things you should be doing or prioritize Pretend that you are dying in 6 months.  What would you be doing?


Falling in Love


Doing things that scare me




In reading Today Matters, I’m on chapter 4: Today’s Priorities Give Me Focus.

Other than my Dailies, I’m pretty open on my priorities outside of work. No clear goals in the short term, and dreams in long term. I know where I want to be in the long term, but not necessarily how to set the plan up on how to get there.

When I decided I was going to school, I spent several years researching schools. Slow at first than steadily faster. I narrowed it down to 3 primary, which were the The East West Healing Arts Institute of Madison Wisconsin, Windemere in Madison, Wisconsin, and St. Croix Center for the Healing Arts. After viewing those three, I had to re-evaluate what I was looking for. I was accepted to the East West Healing Art’s Institute, but they didn’t have federal funding, Windemere didn’t leave a good first impression for me, and St. Croix was a little small for me, and also ineligible for federal funding.

So I started looking for schools closer to home. I looked at Minnesota Globe, followed by Rasmussen College. I was going to look at Center Point, but every time I was set to do it, something got in the way. Of the three, I decided on Rasmussen. it was closer to home, it offered free mentoring, I loved the impressions I got from the campus, I enjoyed meeting the head of the program for Massage Therapy, and it was a good fit for me.

Then came the planning, setting up the loans, getting the time and money set aside to go. I went to school in Spring of 2008, and graduated in Spring of 2010. I went to school year round, passed all my classes with a B or higher, graduating with a 3.62 GPA, a highest achievement in Deep Tissue, and an all around happy experience. I’m not going to lie, I had my doubts, usually at the beginning of the quarter going OMGOMGOMGOMG, what have I gotten myself into? Those usually calmed down to this dull to mute murmur in the back of my mind. But I had a goal, I had my priorities, and I did it. Along the way I made sure to BALANCE, but it got done.

I took time off after graduation, didn’t do anything with my chosen profession while I rested, because going to school Full time and working Full time, can be a bit exhausting. Then found a position at MRS, and worked there for 1 yr 9 months. But I wasn’t thriving there. Things were changing in the direction I didn’t feel comfortable with, a person I work with is never about the $, though it’s a perk, it isn’t the reason for doing so.

Now I’m trying to find the focus and priority that I need to set on my new journey. While I still wish to do Massage as my vocation, I working to balance it with an at home business so I don’t have to depend on massage for it.

Setting priorities now isn’t so much as putting it on paper, though I’ve started doing that. Read 1 to 2 chapters, do 1-2 learn and burns, do a chapter here, dailies, learn and develop. I am determined not to do the same to Melaleuca or Arbonne that I did with Herbalife. Which means I must develop myself and strive to be a bit more outgoing, and a bit more challenging of myself, and throwing myself outside my safety net.

It can be as easy or as hard as saying hello, to a perfect or odd stranger.


So I’m reading Today Matters by John C. Maxwell.  I was going to read Put Your Dream to the Test by John C. Maxwell, but it seems that the book and the notebook have managed to take a walk.  I haven’t seen either since Festival last weekend.  So I’m assuming I took it out unconsciously, and didn’t put it back in, but I’m not sure, it could be in the car I road in.  But eh.

So Today Matters.  Is about 12 Daily Practices to Guarantee Tomorrow’s Success.

As I read through Chapter 3: Today’s Attitude Gives Me Possibilities, I remember my attitude in previous employments.

When I worked at NAMG and MRS, and had very negative views on work, and rather than share the positive of the day, I was sharing the negative more and more often.

Yet outside of work, if a cashier tells me “oh, I don’t want it to rain”, I usually respond with a smile “it could be snow”.  And both she and I smile, and she says, your right it could be.  Rain is good.

When I chose to give up Herbalife, but Kim was invested and loved the product, telling her to approach a person that we both knew that lived and breathed Herbalife about becoming a member of his team, was one of the highlights of my life.  Seeing the Joy and Happiness cross her face when I told her that she should advance and go for it.  She had her doubts, but she stuck with it, and signed on.

When I’m passionate and knowledgeable about a subject, my attitude is there in high happy gear.  When I’m cautious, it’s still there, but not as vibrant.  My toe is in the water going, is it right?  Before I leap.  The problem with business and career, is you’ve already made the leap, now you have to figure out if you want to get out of the water or swim.

Belief In Yourself

Taken 08/18/2012 in Chaska, MN

I wonder what keeps me from reaching some of my goals sometimes. Mostly it’s the fear of being noticed. But to succeed, you have to be noticed.

Not to say that I haven’t succeeded. I have succeeded at pretty much everyplace I’ve worked, except the places where I was not happy.

My roommate sets course, and goes.

I set course to see if I can do it, succeed and back off a bit.

I’m afraid of being noticed. To stand out. A lot of it comes from lessons learned as a child, and being the subject of bullying. I am not victim, I was the subject. But it left me with the thing of not being noticed. Which is odd.

Odd because when I worked at Wal-Mart, I got a raise even though my bagging wasn’t up to speed, 95% of my customers loved me. The loved the fact that I cared enough to bag their groceries and items the way I would bag my own.

When I worked for SunTrust Mortgage, I was the equivalent of an Assistant Supervisor, because I knew my stuff, but I did do a boo boo there. I cost the company about 80000 dollars, providing information without checking all my bases, after that I became VERY thorough. Which helped get me where I was going.

When I worked for Qualex (Kodak), I helped train new people. I was there the longest.

I may not have been ultra happy at those positions, but there are areas I succeeded at.

I’m working on the faith in myself, and the determination to stand out of the trees and wave hello, with out ducking behind them again.