Something Blue and Something Purple: 10/25/2015

I had a massage today, it was AWESOME!  Loosened the legs right up, and lowered my hip.  Can’t wait to get back on schedule.

I also had a WONDERFUL day in my apartment, tormenting my kitty, and using my imagination.

After my massage, my motivation went on vacation.

I have been having seeding thought running through my head for the last couple days.  Where to go, what to do, how to get there.  Kinda knowing that the how will take care of itself, once I plant and lay down the intent.

I still need to give a massage, but today was a very good day.

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Photograph Taken: 05/27/2014
Minnesota Landscape Arboretum

Something Wonderful and Grateful: 10/24/2015

Today started at o’dark thirty in the morning.  One more weekend and it’s the end of daylight savings time for another year.  That and Halloween.  I’m thinking of wearing horns for Halloween, to work, it’d be fun, now that I have the hair to support such an endeavor.

This morning, my roommate and I rode the bus together to work.  It was a wonderful experience, that and getting to work and being booked. Woohoo!

What am I grateful for today?

  1. My roommate, it’s nice to have company when riding the bus in the morning.
  2. Work, it’s real nice to be booked for most of the day.
  3. Family, it’s nice to see updates from the family on various sites.
  4. Followers, I really enjoy it when others appreciate my work.
  5. Network, I really enjoy others also enjoying my work enough to be willing to see me out of work, and to trade.
  6. My Flannel Sheets, warm…
  7. Libby, brings donuts for us therapists.  Stuffed are the best.
  8. Change, can never have enough quarters, especially when the laundry machines run on them.
  9. My clients, they are some cool people.
  10. Metro Transit, though it takes some time, it’s nice to be able to have a way to work even though it takes some time.

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Photograph Taken: 10/17/2010
Minnesota Landscape Arboretum

Something Wonderful and Something Grateful: 10/23/2015

Happy Friday Everyone!

I hope you are having a blessed day!

Please send some good awesome thoughts to those that aren’t, to those in the path of Patricia, to those who are down.  Because today may not have been awesome for them, today may have been a “no people day, please.”

Remember that you are Blessed!  Remember that you are Cherished!  Remember that you are Protected!  Remember that you are Holy!  Remember that you are Safe!  and YOU ARE SO WORTH IT!

Today in Minneapolis was a wonderful rainy day.   It was nice and relaxing.   It was a truly wonderful day.

What happened today that I’m grateful for:

  • My sister’s FB post: “My child just sang the star wars theme song all the way through dinner.  Send Help!”  My nephew is 2.5 yrs old.

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Photograph Taken: 10/22/2015 at Victory Memorial Parkway in Minneapolis, MN

  • My little cat Mischief, as she attempts to keep her comfy spot on the bed.
  • Flannel Sheets. OMG! You have no idea, flannel sheets, my first set of flannel sheets for my twin sized bed. AWESOME!
  • My clients are wonderful.  They are such a joy to serve, help, and talk with.
  • My Friends.  I went out tonight for a weekly Gelato Trip, with a side of dinner at Bubba Gump’s.  It was an awesome dinner, and our waiter was really good.
  • All the new stores opening, tempting new stores.  RUNAWAY! RUNAWAY!
  • Car2Go.  It may be expensive, but it pays to not have to ride the bus in the rain sometimes, as well as stand in the rain.
  • Water spray bottle.  For when the cats are being precocious.  Yes I know a few big words.
  • I’m Grateful to see the metro police do a pop up and check bus passes.  I had wondered if they did that.
  • And Azhari for giving my roommate and I a ride home from MOA this evening.

I hope everyone is okay, and remember that you ARE loved, cherished, blessed, safe, holy, and protected.

Peace be with you.

Amen and Nameste.

Something Wonderful and Something Grateful: 10/22/2015

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Photograph Taken: 10/22/2015
Victory Memorial Parkway
Minneapolis, MN

Today being Thursday, meant it was Blueberry day. Which meant it’s taking care of my little nephew, and going for a walk in the morning, with Briar Rose. We went walking up to the Memorial parkway this morning. Blueberry got to run around, and talk to the trees, and Briar got to think she could chase the squirrels. It was an all around awesome morning.

Today was also a day of not seeing the Forest for the trees. In other words looking at what you are looking for, but not being aware that it’s there, kinda a day. My sister does Fabric Diapers, which come with are assembled with pads, yeah, didn’t even see said pads till I had already dried some the other ones. Oops!

My client came over for a massage, gave me her water bottle, I filled it with water, left it on the table, and brought her the wrong bottle. *shakes head*

Forest for the trees kinda day.

My wonderful for the day was playing with this little guy.

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Some really cool Grateful Moments today.

Talking to a crow, and he got really interested in me.
Seeing 2 white squirrels.
Traffic was really awesome today
Got a perfect parking space at Menards
Had the opportunity to play around with the trees and my Nephew
Cookies! are awesome
Having two birds fly right by my head. That was cool.
My Home
Car2Go makes it really easy to find and drive.
Mischief, she’s soft and furry.

Something Wonderful and Something Grateful: 10/21/2015

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Photograph Taken: 10/21/2015
Lakewood Cemetery, Minneapolis, MN

It kind of feels Terribly Wonderful in both a good and bad way. I’m nervous about the outcome and the journey. I’ve been on this journey before, but I got off the road due to some choices and stresses at the time. Now that some things have calmed down, I’m ready to try again. I signed up for Herbalife tonight.

I am aware that there are alternatives to Meal Replacement shakes in regards to losing weight, however this is the best mode that has helped me greatly in the past. I stopped eating out as much, started eating better meal choices, and satisfied my Ice cream craving on the product. I wasn’t in pain as frequently, though I was also getting regular massage, and I wasn’t as sick (let alone minimal allergy flare ups) while on the product. I’m looking forward to it.

What am I grateful for today?

The fact that I don’t currently have a car.
The abundance of nature around me.
My massage Clients
My little kitten, Mischief.
Music.
My de-cluttering lifestyle.
My nice warm apartment.
The Metro Transit system.
Choice.
My Home.

Boundaries

Boundaries aren’t about keeping people out of your life, although they will have that effect, they are how we manage our energy flows. ~ Jennifer Hoffman

Boundaries are so important both in the professional and personal realm. We don’t tend to think about it in the digital age, as we do in our personal age, and some don’t think about it at all. Boundaries are a healthy habit to have. It helps define the relationships you have, it helps keep relationships in certain boundaries, that you wish to maintain.

Some boundaries are learned and reinforced. Some boundaries are the foundations of relationships. Some boundaries are instinct. You have friend boundaries, work boundaries, business boundaries, family boundaries, different level of boundaries depending on the relationship, etc. There are boundaries throughout life, not just relationships. But boundaries dealing with time, money, housing, functions, material items, stuff, pets, etc.

What you will do for something or won’t do for something, is a boundary.
How much time you choose to spend on something or with some one can be seen as a boundary. Boundaries are important for your sanity, your health, and your business (employment).

For years, all the way from childhood, I could tell my Mother anything, and she would be my sounding board. But one night in Winter a couple years ago, I had dinner with my parents, and my Mother was triggered by something. I don’t remember what she said, but I do remember how it made me feel, and how long it took for me to recover from it. So from that point on, I made sure I had a buffer till I was sure I could address new boundaries in the relationship. When I did, I told her that I couldn’t tell her anything anymore, because I couldn’t risk the pain and hurt later when she used it against me. It hurt to do that, because she is my mother. But it was necessary for my physical and mental health.

One of my first Massage clients asked me out on date, and I said no. It actually made me feel very uncomfortable, because it was an unspoken boundary learned in school. Don’t date clients. It alarmed me to a point, and the dynamic of the relationship changed, because he continued to push. And we mutually didn’t continue seeing each other at all. Though he is still in an outer circle.

While going to school and working full time, one of my boundaries was nature time. Nature time came before homework.

I don’t friend everyone on under the sun on FB or Linked In. It’s important to me to have a connection of some sort whether in a professional network or some link on either site. But it’s also important the history of the relationship that was had with that individual. Example: I’m not going to friend a woman who made my life hell in high school…umm…no. I’m not going to friend the Married Guy that has no boundaries when flirting. I’m most likely not going to friend you when there isn’t any common denominators between us, or there was some sort of animosity between us. Bad form really. FB for a more personal connection, at least for me. LinkedIn is a more profession networking site, at least for me.

Boundaries can work, and if they don’t work, then new boundaries need to be made. My boundaries, and your boundaries are going be different.

Not What I was Originally Thinking about Journaling Today:

I’m not quite sure how to write this entry up, my mind is still scattered in the wind.

This morning I went to Aurapalooza. I was very happy to be able to make it this month. As I’ve been unable to make it in other months. I went to see two readers. Which both helped immensely with what’s been peculating around in my mind.

There are some things that need to heal, and some crying that needs to happen. One of my friends has said he has been doing a lot of crying lately, which is releasing a lot of pain and anger. I was ready to do some crying at the time. It was there, just waiting to roll into the surface, but once I let some of it go, went to leave, walked down the road, and arrived home, the feeling had passed. Though I know it’s still there. It’s not quite ready to be released.

A lot of it has to do with the relationship I have with my Mother. I fool myself sometimes to think that I’ve done some healing, and I have done some healing, but my relationship with my Mother has not healed. One thing that I know that hurts is the statement that one of my parents said. My mother saw me as a challenge. A challenge, not a daughter, A challenge. It hurts to think about it, let alone acknowledge it. But there’s a little girl in me that wonders why. Why was I never good enough to have the love that my sister may have gotten or my brother. What made me different? Why was I the challenge? There’s a book called Ancestral Karma, that I’ve seen that may help me release some of that, though I know that I myself can release it, no book needed. I have have the knowledge, I have the faith that I can heal, and eventually heal the rift between us. Because What I experienced, my mother has experienced, and what she has experienced, her mother experienced. I’m not sure where it started. But it started somewhere long before me.

Keening might help. It’s not the first time that some one has told me that I have some healing to do. I large part of me, is like “haven’t I don’t enough healing”. I’ve done a great deal of healing, but I have some more healing to do. *thud*

With Lisa, it was a check in. But I also had a mission of getting some Palo Santo Wood, something to help clear the air before and after a healing, and there was one bag left. I paid off my layaway with Holistic Arts. I then saw a second reader, which was not the original plan, but something said I needed to see her. She helped provide a greater insight to what was REALLY bugging me this morning. Where in my mind I was like money, but the heart of it was the pile of SHIT sitting in my dining room again. The lack of control I have over the situation dealing with it, and the feeling of powerlessness in the situation. Which echos again with my Mother. The universe is bringing lessons around so I can learn them, and until I do, the lessons will continue to be presented. *great*