Wow: 7/28/2017

So this morning I went off to work, and I was feeling pretty meh.  I have been doing my SAVERS from the Miracle Morning Book for some time, and this morning I hadn’t done the A part of Savers.   Once I started doing them in my head, the attitude changed drastically, and I was better throughout my shift of work.   But there are a couple other things that are going through my mind.

Also realizing that I am indeed leaving the Massage industry for a couple years, and realizing that I am ready to let it go, was probably part of the my MEH attitude this morning.  I am also getting the feeling that I should start packing, since I am planning on moving within the upcoming year.  Not only that but intending to be moved by this time (July 2018) next year.   These are major decisions for me.  One I’ve worked in Massage for over 7 years, and this is the first time I will be moving out and living on my own.

For me it’s more than just moving out and living on my own.  It’s about owning my own power, standing in my own power, and taking control of my life.   As much as I would like to take some one with me, to be my buddy and pal, this is a journey I have to do on my own.   And as much as having a buddy and pal with me, it’s holding me back.  It’s holding me back, because I am usually waiting for them to catch up, or I am trying to help them rise up, and greet their potential.  Because in them I see greatness, and I don’t understand sometimes, that my journey and their journey are not the same.  They need to make their own way, in their own time.

So Wow, indeed.


Healing: 4/19/2017

Working in a healing industry, I’m sad to see so many people come through my door that are ill or hurt.  Not because they are hurt from physical ailments, but from the mental and emotional ones.   Also seeing those emotional and mental hurts manifest in the tissues.  In massage we call it “issues in the tissues“.  I describe it to people as a music example (that those issues in the tissues are doing heavy metal, while the rest of your body is doing jazz).  I have had people on my table, start crying out of the blue, releasing the pain and hurt that has been planted there.  I have had people re-book, and come back, saying that so much was released after the session, they want to do another round.  I’ve had people who haven’t come back, because they are not prepared for the work that they need to do, to become well.

Sometimes to heal, can be as easy as a choice.  Sometimes healing isn’t as easy as it appears, because of the work that needs to be done.  But that work isn’t just on the part of the Doctor, Chiropractor, Shaman, Energy Worker, or Healer, it’s on the person that wishes to be healed.  Because the one thing that some people don’t realize, it’s not the healer that is healing, it is the healer, that is providing you the avenue to heal thyself.

To heal may require you to open that wound right up, and that can be painful.  It can feel like it’s brand spanking new, even though the wound is years or decades old.  It can feel hurtful, it can feel worse than it ever has been, or it can feel like the release you need.   Healing can be rejuvenating, it can be awesome, or it can be the scariest painful thing you have ever done.  It depends on how you look at it sometimes.  It usually depends on whether or not you are willing to let it go.

Are you willing to till the fields?  Are you willing to set fire to the prairie?  Are you willing to pull out those weeds?  In the act of forgiveness and unconditional love of thyself, the event, and the other people involved?  Are you ready to let go?  Keep in mind it has taken your lifetime to get to the spot you are now.  It’s always your choice where you go from here.

Choku Rei: 01.29.2017

When I draw, or see, or consciously practice Reiki, I see Choku Rei as a power symbol. But when I experience Choku Rei it’s power, protection, and fire. Whenever I draw Choku Rei, I drawed it with warm colors. I draw with the fire colors, with oranges, Reds, and yellows. Because fire has warm colors with it, but sometimes fire has darker cooler colors such as blues, greens, and purples.


So today I decided to do an experiment. I had been looking to experiment with some masking fluid, while doing water color. And today called to be manifest turned out perfectly. Drawing symbols creatively helps me commit them to Memory. It helps me bring them into Focus. It helps me memorize them.

I can’t wait to see what else comes to be.

Choku Rei: 01.29.2017: Derwent Watercolor & Inksense Pencils 

P.S. the original post is on my sain healing blog.

I would Love: 08/19/2016

As a healer, with the wanderlust bug this would be awesome. It’s an article by Massage Magazine about individuals that have done just that. There’s one woman that turned an old food truck into a mode of bringing massage and healing to a niche. There are a couple individuals mentioned in the article that have found their niche.

Wandering Healer came about not because of my wanderlust, but because my path has been long, and I’ve taken a couple detours getting here. You know those mini comics depicting what the journey to success is like. Well … I wouldn’t be on the smooth road, why? Because it isn’t interesting. I love Oaks, I love Maples. I love the landscape that is forever changing. I love to take my camera to the Arboretum (when I have a car), and disappear for hours. I mute my phone, occasionally I take off my shoes, and I walk around with out them. I loved going in the Morning before people get up. I love going in the evening after a large bulk of the people have left. The Arboretum and Preserves like it are large enough you can go and be alone, when surrounded by people.

If it’s one thing I miss about having a vehicle of my own, it is the mobility of having a dependable vehicle of my own. One of my first names for my business was Wandering Healer. It’s changed several times since then, but the name doesn’t leave. So I know regardless of whether I’m blogging under it, naming my business it, or both, Wandering Healer is here to stay. The premise of the name is still there in the back of my mind, and this article brought it back to the forefront. I want to take my business on the Road. I want to be able to travel, and bring my healing practice with me. These Massage Therapists are doing it. I think it’s phenomenal. It gives me a couple ideas.

Contemplative Thoughts, Wonderful Reading, and Grateful Moments: 07/23/2015

I am Worth it!

That is the message that I’ve received today. I am worth the effort.  I am worth the respect.  I am worth the communication.  I am worth it.  I am worth the future.  I am worth the change that is coming.  I am worth the blissful blessings that the Universe has in store for me.  I am Worth my Dreams.  I am worth it.  I am worth the money.  I am worth the Freedom.  I am worth the Healthy.  I am worth it.  I am worth the love.  I am worth the friendships.  I am worth the family.  I am worth it. I am worth the joy.  I am worth the happiness. I am worth the effort.  I am worth it.  I am worth the accomplishments.  I am worth the Balance. I am worth it.  I am worth the success.  I am worth my dreams.  I am worth my destiny.  I AM WORTH IT!

Will it be easy, in ways yes.   It all depends on how fluid I’m with it.  Change can be easy, Change can be difficult.  Change can be both.  It’s all up to you.

I’m getting ready to get in touch with some people and companies, which for me is a big step, because at this point in time, I’m not sure what’s coming, but I know that it’s coming.  This evening I got a ride on the Metro bus, and we ended up talking about anything from insurance, to taxes, to the differences in DMVs (MN vs VA).  But I think I needed to hear what he had to say, as well as another person saying it.  I need to touch base with some people, and it may be just that, touching base, it may be making arrangements, it may be alot of things.  I don’t know unless I take that step, and see what can be done.

I am very Grateful for that moment and experience.  It also showed me another instance of “it’s a small World”.  The bus driver was from Virginia, and I lived in Virginia for 13 years before moving back to Minnesota.

This (debt) is something that D and I talked about, and she was all about make contact, send a little money,  at least make the attempt.  I wasn’t really willing to.  I resented her “mothering”.  I know it’s part of her personality as well as astrological sign, but meh.  I know that it’s something that I need to do.  I can’t just let it go on some of them, it has to be taken care of.   I know that some of them will have to be let go of, and some of them may be able to be settled, but I won’t know till I try.

Heavy thoughts tonight.

Wonderful Events is reading.

Reading and actually understanding more of events and relationships in the past that didn’t end well. Knowing one thing in one area, but the other area still wants to understand, or proof about some thoughts.  Reading both Gifted and Opening to a Channel has helped immensely.   They’ve, especially Gifted and in some ways Opening to Channel , sparked ideas of what to do going forward.  And Lisa had said in my reading that I’ll need two jobs in order to accomplish the money issue. I know that I can’t do something outside of my chosen field.  It’s not for the lack of trying.  I’ve tried, I’ve turned it resumes, I’ve done interviews, but all my history is healing since 2010.  So my two jobs are going to be in healing.  One is Massage, and the other will be intuitive.

It’s calling.  It’s a calling I first heard in 1995.  It’s a calling that I dabbled in from then till 2003, when I moved to Minnesota.  It’s a calling I met in the Yule Fest in the Winter of 2004.  It’s a calling I answer taking pictures and doing art.  It’s a calling that I answered with my Reiki Certification.  It’s a calling that I answered again when I returned to College and earned my Associates Degree in Massage Therapy.  It’s a calling I’ll continue to answer as I step ever forward.  It’s a calling that I will continue to answer right up to the point I begin teaching it, and further.  I might write a book.

My lessons are my lessons.  My path is my path.  It may not be your path, they may not be your lessons, but they are what they are.

And the road goes ever on, it forks, it winds, it goes over bridges and valleys, it goes ever on, regardless of our choice to walk it or not.


Where do you brainstorm?  Is it an conscious act, or does it come on when you can’t run away from your mind?  My best brainstorming moments are when I’m doing mundane things or doing a massage.  Where my mind is calm, and ideas are a plenty.

In regards with my reading last Saturday, I’ve been reading Gifted by Lisa Andres, and some of what I’ve been reading has really clicked, either with my experience, or my experience with D.  How the Universe keeps trying to guide, poke, prod, and push us into the path we are meant to go, to the calling we are meant to answer, to the journey that we are meant to travel.  We all have free will, and we have the choice to do or not do, but the Universe and Guides have a tendency to remind us what we are truly meant to do.

I was walking my nephew yesterday, and I was in the nice mind space where things make connections and you can talk or gain the answers that you are seeking.  With D her guides worked within her boundaries, so certain answers would be within the boundaries she is comfortable with.  In reading Opening to Channel, there is an entry that says that if an individual truly believes that change can only happen through pain, loss, and death, then they (you guides and angels) will let you go in that direction.  You have free will, and they will not change that, they may let you know that it doesn’t have to be that way.  But when you go see another intuitive or medium, their boundaries may not be the same as your boundaries.  So the answers that come out of that meeting may not be the answers you are comfortable with, or they may be exactly what you are looking for.  Which is what I believe happened with D. It’s a learning experience either way.

While I was working on Monday, doing a massage, an idea popped into my head in regards with what was discussed on Saturday.  Guided Meditations. I can do Guided Meditations as well as readings and energy healing.  I can especially do those on Skype or You Tube.  With D,  I would ask what she wanted to see in her meditation, what time of day?  What Season? where? the ambiance of the environment?  Chairs, table, how many? Trees? Who did she want present? etc.  Then I would guide her there through relaxation and into the scene she had designed.  Then allowed her to do what she needed to do in that meditation. Which usually took about 30+ minutes.  It’s one of the things I find annoying about some guided meditations, is that they go through the meditation so fast it doesn’t let your mind go through the motions it needs to.  You can turn it off, but then you need to turn it on.  What ever works I suppose.

When I go in the direction of readings, though, I think I’ll keep it separate from my Massage practice for the time being or indefinitely. However when you really think about it and flow, there is a lot of overlap in both practices.

Wonderful Moments and Grateful Photographic Moments: 06/09/2015

How was everybody’s day?  Was it Great?  Was it Grand?  Was it wonderful?  What made it so?  Did you accomplish what you set out to do?

My wonderful moment was coming home from Chaska, MN, and looking up and seeing not one, but a two rainbows.  A good omen.  Which also included some awesome opportunities for some good Photographs.  Yes you can take some awesome shots with your cellphone, depending on the age and model of the phone.


What am I grateful for?

  1. Shakopee Trading Post (for staying open longer than the hours available, so I could pick up some Smudging Supplies)
  2. My roommate (for tolerating me and my frequent stops for “Oooo, look at that!”)
  3. My furry cats (good for cuddles anytime)
  4. My clients (awesome clients, awesome, awesome, awesome)
  5. Blinds (I closed all the blinds today, and most of the windows to keep the apartment cool on our first “kissing 90 degree day)
  6. Music (because cleaning in silence can be dangerous)
  7. The natural Spring (there’s a natural fresh water spring in Eden Prairie, where we go to get our drinking water [fresh cold water from the ground])
  8. Another Day on the Earth, (it was wonderful)
  9. Cupcakes (a do barters, and I don’t really like people avoiding care, because they can’t afford it, so I offer to trade or barter when needed)
  10. the Faeries (because where would the fun be if we didn’t have them.)

wpid-img_20150609_215329.jpgSunset in Minneapolis, MN


Clouds coming in Shakopee, MN