I am Worth it!
That is the message that I’ve received today. I am worth the effort. I am worth the respect. I am worth the communication. I am worth it. I am worth the future. I am worth the change that is coming. I am worth the blissful blessings that the Universe has in store for me. I am Worth my Dreams. I am worth it. I am worth the money. I am worth the Freedom. I am worth the Healthy. I am worth it. I am worth the love. I am worth the friendships. I am worth the family. I am worth it. I am worth the joy. I am worth the happiness. I am worth the effort. I am worth it. I am worth the accomplishments. I am worth the Balance. I am worth it. I am worth the success. I am worth my dreams. I am worth my destiny. I AM WORTH IT!
Will it be easy, in ways yes. It all depends on how fluid I’m with it. Change can be easy, Change can be difficult. Change can be both. It’s all up to you.
I’m getting ready to get in touch with some people and companies, which for me is a big step, because at this point in time, I’m not sure what’s coming, but I know that it’s coming. This evening I got a ride on the Metro bus, and we ended up talking about anything from insurance, to taxes, to the differences in DMVs (MN vs VA). But I think I needed to hear what he had to say, as well as another person saying it. I need to touch base with some people, and it may be just that, touching base, it may be making arrangements, it may be alot of things. I don’t know unless I take that step, and see what can be done.
I am very Grateful for that moment and experience. It also showed me another instance of “it’s a small World”. The bus driver was from Virginia, and I lived in Virginia for 13 years before moving back to Minnesota.
This (debt) is something that D and I talked about, and she was all about make contact, send a little money, at least make the attempt. I wasn’t really willing to. I resented her “mothering”. I know it’s part of her personality as well as astrological sign, but meh. I know that it’s something that I need to do. I can’t just let it go on some of them, it has to be taken care of. I know that some of them will have to be let go of, and some of them may be able to be settled, but I won’t know till I try.
Heavy thoughts tonight.
Wonderful Events is reading.
Reading and actually understanding more of events and relationships in the past that didn’t end well. Knowing one thing in one area, but the other area still wants to understand, or proof about some thoughts. Reading both Gifted and Opening to a Channel has helped immensely. They’ve, especially Gifted and in some ways Opening to Channel , sparked ideas of what to do going forward. And Lisa had said in my reading that I’ll need two jobs in order to accomplish the money issue. I know that I can’t do something outside of my chosen field. It’s not for the lack of trying. I’ve tried, I’ve turned it resumes, I’ve done interviews, but all my history is healing since 2010. So my two jobs are going to be in healing. One is Massage, and the other will be intuitive.
It’s calling. It’s a calling I first heard in 1995. It’s a calling that I dabbled in from then till 2003, when I moved to Minnesota. It’s a calling I met in the Yule Fest in the Winter of 2004. It’s a calling I answer taking pictures and doing art. It’s a calling that I answered with my Reiki Certification. It’s a calling that I answered again when I returned to College and earned my Associates Degree in Massage Therapy. It’s a calling I’ll continue to answer as I step ever forward. It’s a calling that I will continue to answer right up to the point I begin teaching it, and further. I might write a book.
My lessons are my lessons. My path is my path. It may not be your path, they may not be your lessons, but they are what they are.
And the road goes ever on, it forks, it winds, it goes over bridges and valleys, it goes ever on, regardless of our choice to walk it or not.