What Have I Been Doing? 10/17/2017

Today my office manager pulled me aside to ask me if I was still looking for a new job.  The honest answer is no.  I am not looking for a new job.  The “job” I want doesn’t exist because honestly, I don’t want to “work” for anyone besides myself.  I want to continue working in massage and the healing field, but I don’t want to work for someone else in the field.  I want to own my own business and work for myself in this field.  I want to honor myself and my clients.

I know things are moving.  I’m working on being patient and letting things flow.

Tonight I went to a psychic mediumship practice group.  It was the first time going, and I enjoyed it.  I would go again, and while I was there I met other members of another group that gets together as well.   So it was a benefit as well.  It’s a muscle that I would like to continue to develop, and I have volunteers. O:)  I plan on looking into a couple more meetups as well.

So that’s about it for now.  This week is going to be beautiful!  I am seriously contemplating a trip to the Arboretum tomorrow after work.



Cleaning and Purging: 10/07/2017

This weekend I have been cleaning.  I have rearranged the living room to the point that I am content with.  A’s computer desk is now back in the opposite corner for the winter.  The window it sits next to, has the winter plastic sheet on it.  The TV is in the NorthEast Corner.  The dead Christmas lights are down, and in the trash bag.  I have a couple donation/sell piles going.  I’ve pulled the boxes up from storage to go through them.  I’ve bumped into a couple things that I haven’t thought of since I put them in storage.

I am selling my Men’s Mountain bike, and I am keeping the bike that my Dad gifted me.  I am going to be taking in some Laurell K. Hamilton books in excellent condition for sale.  They’re books that I ordered to keep up the series, but really don’t have an attachment too.

I am done for the night.  I accomplished the main goal which was to move A’s desk out of the Northeast corner so she doesn’t freeze this winter.   I have rearranged some of the shelves so her corner is her corner.   I have moved the portable massage table into a closet, with a drying rack, and the ironing board.  I have moved 2 fans into storage.  I plan on going through boxes tomorrow.

I plan on going through boxes tomorrow  to sort keep or let go of.  I need to have a late dinner, and then I am going to bed.

I am doing this, so when I do move, I don’t have to do much but move.

Doreen Virtue: 8.26.2017

This looks like the topic of the week.   I was meditating and visualizing this morning, and I couldn’t get the topic to disappear.   So it’s been percolating for at least a day.   I am not sure why it’s there, because she wasn’t some one I followed much.  I did not buy many of her products, but I was aware of her products, even looked through some of the decks.  Her stuff did call to me in the “ooo…shiny” way.  But most of  time I asked if this was for me, the answer was no.  The products that I did buy, once they served what I needed them for, I recycled them back into a bookstore.   So I was rather struck as to why she was percolating in my brain today.

One of my teachers mentioned that my empathy is coming online more and more, and that may be why she was so present for me this morning.   There are a great deal of people upset with her decision to convert to Christianity full on.   I can even understand it, having lived in the bible thumper belt for 13 years.   But …  this is her choice.   It’s not mine.  It’s not yours.  It’s not anyone Else’s choice, but hers.  And she has made it.

However her choice touches so many people.  People who have looked up to her.  People who have depended on her.  People who have learned from her teachings.  People who loved her work.  Most of them are feeling a sense of loss and betrayal.  To have some one that has helped them see a different way, to have seemingly turned her back on them, to make a choice for her.  To follow her truth.  There is this sense of loss, anger, betrayal from her students, fellow healers, and customers.

What struck me about her video that she recently did, she doesn’t say that she condemns divination, fortune telling, and sorcery.  She states that the bible forbids them.   That if she gets the message that she should discontinue what she is doing, she will.  That it’s the way she was using her gifts that was the problem.   Now, from other blogs and videos, I understand that some earlier posts or videos may have mentioned that people who had certain products should burn them, because they have dark energy about them.  But in this video she was very careful not to say something in that nature.   She was very careful to have her bible, and reference quotes that had bearing on what she was saying.  She was very careful not to condemn people in this video.

I guess the moral of the story and experience, is that this in itself is a teaching moment.    What you take away from this lesson is up to you.  Where you take it, is up to you.  Follow your own path.  Follow your own truth.  Try to make sure that the people you follow, are in line with the truth you are trying to live or experience.  Even then that may not be enough, because them may change.

Ultimately, this is your life.  This is a life you chose to live in this time, in these times, at this time, and where you go is your choice.

Joyful Sunrise: 7/29/2017

This morning while I was listening to some Esther Hicks,  I pulled Joyful Sunrise for my oracle card of the day.  I like this deck, because it has different insights to what is going on, that wouldn’t normally come out of another deck.   I’ve been doing a deck a week, I may up it to a deck per two weeks.  I am not sure it depends on what strikes my choice.

20170729_142439 Joyful Sunrise: Find time to help yourself or you will find you are alone when those you’ve helped have moved along.  Finding time for yourself is really not one of your strong points.  Although you vary your routine, it is often to find another job to do, and you are a master of multi-tasking.  For life to be treasured you must discriminate between the work that is for you, and that which is for others.  You must realize that others are not always able to provide you with what you need.  You now must step back and say “I am Worth it” when looking to do something for yourself.  If you do not take this step, you may find all others have gone and left you behind, because of all the help you gave them at your expense. I am ready for my own needs to formulate.  I am worth the time and effort.

I had a client yesterday that is pretty happy in part because she is laying boundaries, and she is putting herself first.  When I drew this card this morning, it was like a light bulb, and I thought about the last 14 years.  I like to help people.  I like to help them blossom.  But it has come to my attention recently that I need to take care of myself.  This isn’t so much a new message as it’s nudging me a bit more strongly.

There is this little voice that says stay and hang out here, but there is this larger voice that says it’s time to for YOU.   I told my roommate about a month ago, that I was intending to move by the Summer of 2018.  She wasn’t to happy to hear it, and wanted to know why.  My response was that it is time.  We haven’t talked on this topic since.  While I know it would be easier for her to stay in the area with a roommate, I am not going to be that person.  I am not quite sure how she will take it, but I need to be free to be me.  If that makes any sense.   I have had a couple roommates since I moved to Minnesota, and they’ve all blossomed.  But it’s time for me to blossom, to learn, to grow, to be free to be me.

I have never lived alone by choice.  I have always lived with some one.  Whether they be a boyfriend or roommate, there has always been some one present.  So this feels like a big step for me, but not.  This feels like the right choice.

Wow: 7/28/2017

So this morning I went off to work, and I was feeling pretty meh.  I have been doing my SAVERS from the Miracle Morning Book for some time, and this morning I hadn’t done the A part of Savers.   Once I started doing them in my head, the attitude changed drastically, and I was better throughout my shift of work.   But there are a couple other things that are going through my mind.

Also realizing that I am indeed leaving the Massage industry for a couple years, and realizing that I am ready to let it go, was probably part of the my MEH attitude this morning.  I am also getting the feeling that I should start packing, since I am planning on moving within the upcoming year.  Not only that but intending to be moved by this time (July 2018) next year.   These are major decisions for me.  One I’ve worked in Massage for over 7 years, and this is the first time I will be moving out and living on my own.

For me it’s more than just moving out and living on my own.  It’s about owning my own power, standing in my own power, and taking control of my life.   As much as I would like to take some one with me, to be my buddy and pal, this is a journey I have to do on my own.   And as much as having a buddy and pal with me, it’s holding me back.  It’s holding me back, because I am usually waiting for them to catch up, or I am trying to help them rise up, and greet their potential.  Because in them I see greatness, and I don’t understand sometimes, that my journey and their journey are not the same.  They need to make their own way, in their own time.

So Wow, indeed.

I am Grateful: 7.20.2017

Yesterday was an amazing day. I had some really spicy food and it was delicious. I had some unexpected events. That were really startling.

I am grateful for and love myself. 

I am grateful for and love my home. 

I am grateful for and love the people in my life. 

I am grateful for and loved my transportation. 

I am grateful for and love life’s little lessons. 

I am grateful for and love the cats. 

I am grateful for and love my abundance and prosperity. 

I am grateful for and loved my affirmations.

I’m grateful for and love the nature around me. 

I am grateful for and love The Quiet Moments.

I am Grateful: 7.19.2017

We had some wonderful storms yesterday. They were pretty awesome. I got to take a little walk down to the park, and watch the edge of the storm system just to the south of the Cities. It was pretty spectacular. The colors were really wonderful.

I am grateful for and love the weather. 

I am grateful for and love myself. 

I am grateful for and loved my affirmations. 

I am grateful for and love my home. 

I am grateful for and love new days full of new opportunities. 

I am grateful for and love my cats. 

I am grateful for and love the people in my life. 

I am grateful for and love little messages. 

I am grateful for and love the rain. 

I am grateful for and love the opportunity.

Life is good. All is well in my world.