Good Night: 08/21/2016

What a wonderful Day!

Today I got to babysit my Niece and Nephew.  We went for a walk, and played in the park. Then both went down for a nap after lunch, and then we all went to a block party.  We had some Sebastian Joe’s Ice Cream.  Much fun was had by all.

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Minneapolis, MN

Amazon Prime is “evil”.  But I would say if you don’t have it, it’s well worth the investment.   I’m learning some hard lessons lately.  I’m grateful for them, because they are lessons I needed to learn.

In Love, Namaste….


I am Grateful and Something Wonderful: 02/20/2016

I am grateful for family.  I am grateful for energetic nephews and Beautiful nieces.  I am grateful for good food.  I am grateful for rides.  I am grateful for Mom and Dad.  I am grateful for my brother and sister.  I am grateful for my sister in law and brother in law.  I am grateful for my clients.  I am grateful for donuts.  I am grateful for this beautiful day.

Today was an awesome day.  Very beautiful  Day.


Window into the World

Today we celebrated my Father and Brother in Law’s Birthday.  The meal was great.  The company was awesome.  And I had a awesome conversation with my Father on the way home.

It was a good day.

Not What I was Originally Thinking about Journaling Today:

I’m not quite sure how to write this entry up, my mind is still scattered in the wind.

This morning I went to Aurapalooza. I was very happy to be able to make it this month. As I’ve been unable to make it in other months. I went to see two readers. Which both helped immensely with what’s been peculating around in my mind.

There are some things that need to heal, and some crying that needs to happen. One of my friends has said he has been doing a lot of crying lately, which is releasing a lot of pain and anger. I was ready to do some crying at the time. It was there, just waiting to roll into the surface, but once I let some of it go, went to leave, walked down the road, and arrived home, the feeling had passed. Though I know it’s still there. It’s not quite ready to be released.

A lot of it has to do with the relationship I have with my Mother. I fool myself sometimes to think that I’ve done some healing, and I have done some healing, but my relationship with my Mother has not healed. One thing that I know that hurts is the statement that one of my parents said. My mother saw me as a challenge. A challenge, not a daughter, A challenge. It hurts to think about it, let alone acknowledge it. But there’s a little girl in me that wonders why. Why was I never good enough to have the love that my sister may have gotten or my brother. What made me different? Why was I the challenge? There’s a book called Ancestral Karma, that I’ve seen that may help me release some of that, though I know that I myself can release it, no book needed. I have have the knowledge, I have the faith that I can heal, and eventually heal the rift between us. Because What I experienced, my mother has experienced, and what she has experienced, her mother experienced. I’m not sure where it started. But it started somewhere long before me.

Keening might help. It’s not the first time that some one has told me that I have some healing to do. I large part of me, is like “haven’t I don’t enough healing”. I’ve done a great deal of healing, but I have some more healing to do. *thud*

With Lisa, it was a check in. But I also had a mission of getting some Palo Santo Wood, something to help clear the air before and after a healing, and there was one bag left. I paid off my layaway with Holistic Arts. I then saw a second reader, which was not the original plan, but something said I needed to see her. She helped provide a greater insight to what was REALLY bugging me this morning. Where in my mind I was like money, but the heart of it was the pile of SHIT sitting in my dining room again. The lack of control I have over the situation dealing with it, and the feeling of powerlessness in the situation. Which echos again with my Mother. The universe is bringing lessons around so I can learn them, and until I do, the lessons will continue to be presented. *great*

A Celebration of Life

Yesterday we buried my Aunt Julie.  My father’s younger oldest sister with ‘tude.

Yesterday was a day of family and friends coming together to say farewell to a member of our family.  I say farewell, because we will see each other again, she will be around a lot, she will visit her family, but now she isn’t in pain and she doesn’t have to fight to live, now she lives forever in all of us.  We may look at a picture and she’ll be there, we may find a gem (a memory, a pin, or some object) and she’ll be there, we don’t have to pick up the phone, or go on facebook, we can talk to her and she’ll be there, though the response may be different, she’ll still be there.

I can honestly say today, that I don’t want to people today.  But the wheel turns ever on. 

Julie’s family held a Celebration of her life Last night, which I’m sure was an awesome event to behold.  I wasn’t able to attend, and it hurt that I wasn’t able to participate with the family.  I may not agree with some of the family politics but we ARE all FAMILY.

I wasn’t there to support my family, and be part of the family and see the home that was Julie’s, though I’m grateful for the opportunity to spend time with family.

I can honestly say I haven’t been this emotional about death in my recollection.  I know it’s a sign of healing, and I welcome it.

So Fare the well Aunt Julie, till we meet again. I love you.


This Morning

…Heaven gained another spit-fire Angel.

My Aunt Julie passed away at 5 am from cancer.  She was 58 years young.  She lived her life the way she chose, and damned if you disagreed.

Today I and my siblings and cousins lost an Aunt.

Today Julie’s kiddos lost a Mother.
Today Julie’s hubby lost his wife.
Today my father and his siblings lost a sister.

She joins my Mother’s brother Allen, my Mother’s Father Dale, my Father’s parents Catherine and Eldon, and my Father’s brother Dennis.

She leaves behind a clan of kiddos and  grand kiddos, a hubby and extended family.

She lived her life the way she wanted, and cancer didn’t change that.

Today my Aunt passed away in her sleep.

Julie swinging on a swing. Surrounded by her siblings, including Dennis.


Wonderful Family Times and Grateful Inspirations: 6/21/2015

I hit a road block last night and crashed.  So this is a little late.  I update it into my written journal so I don’t forget my wonderful moments or grateful events.

How was everybody’s Father’s Day? Did you enjoy the first day of Summer?

Sunday morning was family brunch with the family and Dad.  We went out to the Original Pancake House. NOMNOMNOM just doesn’t catch it.  Then after the arboretum I went to my parent’s house and visited.

What am I grateful for?
1. Family – get togethers
2. Roommate – use of car
3. Cat – Furry cuddles
4. My Life – perfect in imperfection
5. The beautiful wonderful day
6. My Affirmations – they help my frame of mind in more ways than one.
7. Guided meditations – help me ground
8. Intuition – I was right
9. Mother’s intuition – my sister’s
10. My fan – keeps me cool